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Now I'm 29

Pinstripe jumpsuit

And so I enter the last year of my 20s.

28 was the most difficult year of my life. There's no gentle way of describing the shitstorm that has ensued over the last 365 days, and I also don't want to dwell on it, but from September 2017 to now, I had to battle a lot. A diagnosis of anxiety and my first experience of panic attacks and therapy (the latter, by the way, I cannot recommend enough because just talking to somebody impartial is so cleansing); crippling self-doubt and lack of confidence brought on by a mentally-destructive relationship finally coming to an end; and, worst of all, losing my dad unexpectedly just over three months ago.

I don't want to talk about these things in detail. Not because I'm ashamed or in denial, but because writing about them here isn't how I've learnt to live with them. There's plenty of hard work that I've put in away from the internet, along with the unwavering support of family and friends that continues to help me every single day, but really, I feel like 29 is going to be an exciting year for me.

Over the last year, I've seen two of my best friends get married, one of them has had twins, and another two are pregnant. Multiple others have got engaged and bought houses, whilst others have broken up long-term relationships and/or moved to other countries. Everybody is making changes, and as cliche as it sounds, I've learnt SO much about myself in the last year, from all of their experiences as well as my own.

I understand what I'm willing to put up with and what I deserve in relationships, friendships and in my career. I still know that travelling the world fills me with so much joy, but I know that I don't have to go alone - instead, I can just choose to if I fancy it. But along with engagement and pregnancy announcements everywhere, I'm also bombarded with people telling me that they DON'T want those things, and for a while, I felt bad for being single and not wanting to be.

I realised through time alone, various online dating exploits, and just being honest with myself, that it's OK for me to want to get married one day and have children. I'm not failing feminism or being overly dependent on somebody. In fact, dating for the first time in almost eight years allowed me to be brutally truthful about what I do and don't want, as well as understanding my own worth. Turning people down and being turned down myself was a well-needed lesson in just getting to know myself and it meant that when I met an incredible man, the feeling of 'Ooooo maybe this is a bit too soon' pretty quickly gave way to 'Hell yes, I deserve him and he deserves me!'. I don't give a shit about standard timelines or what everyone else is doing because my god, I have never felt so incredibly loved.

And really, if we're going to get super soppy, 28 has been a year of knowing wholeheartedly that I am SO loved. From my housemates who listened to me rant after every shit date, my beautiful Bangarang girls who spoiled me with a Lush spa treatment when I got back from Jamaica, my unbelievable family who dropped everything in order to support me every single time I needed them, my best friends, whether at home or abroad, who called me every day when I was at my lowest, and my boyfriend who, despite only meeting me in January, understands exactly what I need 24/7 (insider fact: it's mainly hugs and double raspberry Magnums).

Tomorrow I'm flying to Hong Kong to meet my best friend's twin baby girls for the first time, before jetting off to Japan a few days later. Those squidgy, little bubs signify so much exciting change and hope, and I'm already so in love with them. They, along with everything over the last year, just go some way to making me who I am and I'm genuinely hopeful about what 29 might bring.

What I'm wearing as a super grown-up, sassy 29 year old

Pinstripe jumpsuit
Pinstripe jumpsuit - Look of the Day* / Trainers - Look of the Day*

Discovering My Roots in Saint Elizabeth, Jamaica

Bull Savannah, Saint Elizabeth, Jamaica

Before I flew to Jamaica, I told my friends and family that after that one trip, I would never go back. Having to visit the country for the worst reasons meant that I only associated it with misery, and knowing that any future visit there would remind me of that meant I'd already ruled out returning. But it turned out to be a journey of unanticipated self-discovery, leaving me with a strange sense of belonging and a renewed love of the place I come from.

The Trip I Really Don't Want to Take


I've always been proud of my heritage. As I grew up, I always knew the privilege of being half-Jamaican; experiencing a different culture from the day I was born, albeit second-hand. Despite knowing my background and being pretty well-travelled, I've never been to Jamaica. My dad moved back there almost two years ago and I've always planned to visit and see it through his eyes. Instead, today, I'm flying out there to say a final goodbye to him, and the country I've always longed to visit is now tainted.

The Things I Don't Write About

Gingham top with floral applique

I recently had a conversation with a friend about whether you can be a blogger and maintain your privacy. She asked me if there's anything I wouldn't write about and I answered an unequivocal 'yes' because as much as I publish here and lord knows I love me a good old gossip, I'm actually a pretty private person. What you see on these pages is a curated insight into my life, but personally, I choose to have a distinction between what I share and I what is kept offline.

On Not Going Away For The Bank Holiday Weekend

Bedford embankment river ouse

For the first time in a long time, I didn't go away for the bank holiday weekend. My original plan was to go to Lisbon, which is very much still on my to-visit list, but when my friend found out she had some clashes with work, I decided to do what the majority of people do on a long weekend: nothing.

Finding Inspiration in the Little Things

Fashion blogger in camo jacket, pink tshirt, jeans, khaki boots

I've got that feeling again where I need things to be shaken up. I fancy change, but not of the big life-changing, quit-my-job-to-travel sort like I did last year (although that is always tempting); more of the small tweaks and updates to my life to inject some newness into everyday mundanity.

Going 'Out' Out

Gingham bardot top, blue jeans
I'm wearing: Top - Matalan / Jeans - River Island / Rings - ASOS / Trainers - Superga

Readers, I'm struggling. My skin has broken out, I can't seem to grab enough sleep and my insides feel like they haven't seen a piece of fruit in a month (potentially because they probably haven't). You see, I'm a very sociable person, despite me being a miserable cow on the surface. This blog is all about how I love to go out and discover and explore, but it is rare that I go 'out' out. Yet the last two weekends have seen exactly that.

Getting Used to Not Travelling Alone

Fashion blogger wearing black dress, black cardigan, black boots
I'm wearing: Cardigan - vintage / Dress - Debenhams / Leggings - Uniqlo / Boots - Ugg at All Sole* (similar here)

When somebody travels alone it conjures certain thoughts and assumptions from other people: independent, brave, organised. It's always seen as a positive thing, and don't get me wrong, it absolutely is a great experience, every.single.time. But after going on my first group holiday since I was about 21 recently (and with more in the pipeline), I've realised that I definitely travel in a certain (i.e. selfish) way, totally based on my lone adventures.

The Real Reasons I Went Travelling (and Why It's The Best Decision I Ever Made)

Blyde River Canyon, South Africa

Almost exactly a year ago I did the bravest thing I have ever done: I boarded a plane to Kuala Lumpur, alone, with a rough three month itinerary, a backpack and no bloody idea what I was doing.

I've kind of alluded as to why I made this decision, but I'll be honest, I was running away. I'd never made such an impulsive decision before. But on the night my seven-year relationship ended in a blaze of hellfire, I found myself sat in my best friend's lounge being smothered in hugs, stacking up mugs of tea that I kept leaving to go cold and wondering the fuck I was doing.

The Happiness Triangle

Fashion blogger in pink leather mini skirt and Cheap Monday jumper

OK, stick with me here because this sounds like some weird idea I've picked up from an old issue of Cosmo or after watching Eat Pray Love, but I have this theory, and I've had it for a while.

Little Acts of Kindness

Fashion blogger wearing blanket scarf, black skinny jeans and Nike trainers
I'm wearing:
Coat: Warehouse
Hat: Primark
Scarf: ASOS
Jumper: ASOS
Jeans: Topshop
Necklace: Etsy
Trainers: Nike

On the surface, this looks like an outfit post, but there is a background to these photos that tell lots of little individual stories.

I am a huge believer in little acts of kindness; the sorts of seemingly insignificant gestures from others that they do without thinking, but show a beautiful level of caring, empathy and love.

Creating Something

Denim tshirt and leather look jeans
I'm wearing:
Baseball jacket - ASOS
Denim tee - New Look
Necklace - vintage
Leather look jeans - New Look
Trainers - Superga

I mentioned a few weeks ago that one of the things I learnt last year was that this blog actually means something to me. Whether it's scribbling away post ideas in my battered notebook whilst waiting for a plane or editing photos whilst sat on my sofa and watching Parks and Rec on repeat, my brain is always buzzing about what I can do next and how I can improve what I put out here.

Laters 2016, It's Been Weird

Pan Pacific glass roof elevator

I'm not the first to say that 2016 has been an odd one. Globally of course it has been a total clusterfuck, but personally it's been a totally mixed bag. I've experienced the most change since I graduated and moved to London almost seven years ago, but actually it's all ended up incredibly positive - even if it didn't necessarily feel like it at the time.

Added Extras #50

Lifestyle blog round-up

Well! I've finally hit the 50th edition of Added Extras and what a day to do so because today I fly to South Africa! Ever since I came back from The Big Trip in June, I've been saving and waiting for my next adventure and I am so excited to go to Africa for the first time.

Added Extras #49

UK lifestyle blogger montage

Tomorrow is my last day in the office until 16th January and I am ready for Christmas please and thank you. I don't know if the dark mornings, my empty bank account or the fact I haven't really eaten a vegetable in weeks, but December is taking it's toll and come Wednesday I'll be on my mum's sofa, with my baby sister (who's actually 21 this week HOW IS THAT A THING?), watching Scrooged and finally feeling festive.

Added Extras #48


It's been another couple of weeks of mayhem, with everything being stupid busy at work, my festive social life ramping up, and as a result, I've got my annual December cold. It's been here for a week now and frankly, I'm fed up of it. I spent most Friday and all of Saturday in bed trying to shift it, but it's persisting and I've got too much to do so I'm just cracking on. I've got just over a week of work left until I head home for Christmas and then I'm not back in the office until 16th January. Woohoo!

Added Extras #47

UK lifestyle blogger

It's only Tuesday and this week is already proving to be a giant pain in the arse. Every year when things start getting festive, I promise myself I won't book in too much but somehow it happens without me even realising. Add to that a hectic time at work, Christmas presents to be bought, the wedding of two of my favourite people and an upcoming holiday to South Africa, I don't really have time to do anything.

Added Extras #46

UK lifestyle travel blog

Hiiiiiiiii! A few Tuesdays have passed and I've fallen behind on these weekly instalments again. The main reason being that I'm trying hard to not force myself into doing things I don't want to do and just enjoy some down time. I love writing this blog, but when I'm tired from work and still maintaining an active social life, typing posts and editing photos has had to take a back seat.

Added Extras #45

UK lifestyle blog

Oh dear. I'm very behind. It's just that October was a bit of a weird one; it started off horribly, had a very interesting middle and ended a bit....meh.

Added Extras #44

Best lifestyle bloggers UK round-up

In the immortal words of the poet that is Ronan Keating, 'Life is a rollercoaster.' Except, the one I'm on is making me so damn exhausted. There's been a lot of changes going on and they're definitely all for the best, but please can I just skip forward to 27th December when I'm on a plane to South Africa, hurtling towards sunshine and AWAY from real life for a bit.
As of 20th November 2014, any products marked with an asterisk (*) have been provided as a sample for unbiased review